If my life had a word for the past few months it would be anxiety. Since the nights have been drawing in, my anxiety/ panic has got worse. I tried going to therapy but was too anxious to leave the house despite knowing I really needed it. I had to miss a friends wedding because my level of panic and adrenaline was so high. Ive turned down party invites and I have had to cancel arrangements with friends.
My social anxiety is bad right now. The worst part is its hidden to the outside world and I wake up sometimes very anxious.
Im going to try and challenge the thoughts and socialise slowly, expose myself to the feared triggers slowly. But im exhausted by my panic disorder. Essentially I keep having panic attacks but I need to learn to sit with and deal with them.
Its hard sharing this.
Any advice? I want to create a beautiful life without fear.