Its been a really interesting week for me. I firstly decided after not getting the right NHS therapeutic support that I had to take life into my hands in two ways. Firstly, I needed to see if I could get funding for private therapy to help my anxiety and panic attacks about work. I was able to and then I have booked an appointment to see a recommended psycho-dynamic counsellor. I am hoping that my counselling sessions will help the anxiety and fear around certain things.
Secondly, I decided that if I want to live my dreams and have a life that is fulfilling and true to myself, I have to pursue them. Obviously I have to make my dream achievable too so I have been applying for jobs that feel right for me. My dream has been to be a teacher and I hope to get there one day. I have been interviewing for various positions in schools and hopefully the right one for me will come up soon. I will leave it to God and the universe to decide and do all I can.
So, its been quite a whirlwind for me this week and definitely being pushed a little outside my comfort zone, putting my heart and dreams on the line. However, I am really proud of myself for doing this. I have wanted to seek therapeutic help for years and while its a shame I can’t get it for free on the NHS, I hope it helps me to change my life. My family are a great support for me with this. I am starting this week and will see what happens.
So I have been going to job interviews and its really scary being asked so many questions and waiting for feedback. I know though that I can do it and make myself and my family proud (I hope anyway!)
As well as the above, I am very excited to be going to see Aladdin the musical at the theatre with my boyfriend for our anniversary. He is a wonderful support to me and I love disney!
Lastly, a blog friend, the Happiness Hunter https://thehappinesshunt.wordpress.com has nominated me for the Liebster Award which celebrates new blogs. My blog has been going almost 2 years but I feel so thrilled to receive the award. Thank you so much! Due to time constraints I can’t nominate other blogs for the award but dedicate it to all my blog followers who are battling mental health stigma and writing so amazingly.
Go and visit the above blog too, its wonderful! Thanks again 🙂
Thank you to Sue at http://www.myloudbipolarwhispers.com for nominating Be Ur Own Light as one of their Sunshine Bloggers! Sue wrote, ‘I believe this great group of people and their blogs bring a lot of joy and sunshine and education into the lives of many people and I also pray these lovely people have a lot of joy and sunshine in their lives every day.’
Thank you so much Sue for this beautiful accolade and for paving the way in battling stigma against bipolar disorder and mental health in general! You are a star in a dark world 🙂
So these are the rules except I can’t think of 11 people to nominate, so I will do 4!
Rules for “The Sunshine Blogger Award”
- Thank the blogger who nominated you and link to them.
- Answer the eleven questions asked.
- Nominate 11 other bloggers. (I am doing 4)
- Create 11 new and different questions for them to answer.
- List the rules.
- Include the “Sunshine Blogger Award” logo in your post somewhere
Sue has asked me to provide answers to the following questions:
How old are you? 29
How old were you when you were diagnosed with mental illness, or other type of chronic and/or invisible illness or grief? Diagnosed with bipolar affective disorder at 16, lived with anxiety disorder from 17/18
Where do you live? London, UK
What makes you happy? Sunshine, sunflowers, autumn leaves, chocolate, Reading books and of course my boyfriend, friends and family.
What makes you angry: War, refugees still having to flee, terrorism and mental health stigma
When was the last time you experienced mental illness stigma or any other type of stigma or discrimination? A few years ago when someone refused to set me up on a date with someone they knew due to my illness being disclosed.
What is your favorite kind of candy? Cadburys chocolate
What is your favorite season and why? Autumn (Fall)- because its so cosy and I love fairy lights, hot chocolate, snuggling in blankets, autumn leaves etc.
How long have you been blogging? Here on WordPress for almost 2 years and before that on Blogger and elsewhere for 2 years. I am a writer so am always blogging.
Do you prefer a sunny or a cloudy/rainy day? Usually sunny but there is something very cosy about watching the rain from inside.
I nominate the following because they are rays of light in the blogging world, sharing, writing and wearing their hearts on their sleeves. They sparkle in tackling mental health stigma and I am so proud to have them as Followers of my blog.
Alexis Rose- https://atribeuntangled.com/
Paul McGinley- https://paulmcginleymentalhealth.wordpress.com/
Christina at Sea of Words- https://seaofwordsx.wordpress.com/
Happiness Hunt Blog https://thehappinesshunt.wordpress.com
These are the following questions they must answer:
1) Why did you start your blog?
2) How long have you been blogging and what is your passion?
3) Which country are you based and what is mental health care like there?
4) What is your favourite movie?
5) If you could chose one actor to play you in the film of your life who would it be?
6) What has helped you on your recovery journeys?
7) Where would you most want to travel to?
8) What is your favourite food?
9) Why do you like writing?
10) Which song makes you smile?
11) If you could pick a spirit animal who would you pick?
Congratulations on the award !
Thank you to Feedspot.com for giving us another Blog award! As well as being a Top 30 social anxiety blog, we are listed as a Top 100 blog for people with Bipolar disorder, at number 49!
We have been listed amongst some amazing, informative websites! Take a look at the full list here: http://blog.feedspot.com/bipolar_disorder_blogs/
Thanks to Anuj and all at Feedspot for recognising our work!
Today we at Be Ur Own Light woke up to the fantastic news that http://www.feedspot.com have listed us as one of the Top 30 Blogs for Social Anxiety information on the internet!
This is hugely exciting to be considered No 14 on the list, after Google and other important websites.
We are so grateful for this, our first award!
You can see us in the list here: http://blog.feedspot.com/social_anxiety_blogs/
Thank you FeedSpot!