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This is a poem/ thoughts written by a guest poster with depression who wanted to share their thoughts. Please read with care as it discusses exactly what depression is like
When everyone sees rainbows and flowers, I am trapped, suffocating in the darkness, alone.
As everyone laughs and smiles, I pull my mask, over my face, over my soul, yet again.
My mask is what I hide behind, and shield everyone else from the unbearable dark cloud that follows me everywhere.
My hair hasn’t been washed in a week, and I don’t have the energy to shower. My teeth aren’t brushed and my house is a mess. Everyday, I sit, in the darkness, alone. This feeling is crippling.
It slowly sucks the life out of me, and I fear the day my eyes no longer open.
I hide behind my mask, because the truth is just too scary for most, that the demons haunt me all day and everyday, and suck my soul to shreds.
I hide behind my mask because it’s easier than hearing how I am in a rut, or mind over matter.
I hide behind my mask because it makes me the same as all the other moms. It makes me more relatable. It gives me the illusion that I am not alone.
I am careful to put my mask on each and everyday, and while I carefully balance it, I am being beaten down by the darkness that follows me.
My smile isn’t real, nor is my laugh.
Deep inside when I remove my mask, the clouds take over and it’s simply too much to bear.
Demons swirl around faster and faster, weighing heavily on my body, crippling me until I can no longer move.
I lay numb, soulless, and alone.
And my depression has won again.